2025

I love all creatures 😁 (most all) Amy and the “spiky love bug”. He is a bearded dragon.

First post in a century…well in many years. I am a new version of me-a better version. And it’s a whole new timeline and world we are in and navigating now. I won’t make this long. I just needed to attempt to write and post something. I know words are powerful. According to Florence Schovel Shin words are your wand. And I believe they can be. I must write something towards building my new life and this may seem like a sloppy and mindless post but it is for the sake of a small step to wording my way back to my soul expression. Words create worlds. And there is no denying this technological world is becoming more entangled with the physical dimensions.

So to wrap up this meandering thought process….I was just watching a video that showed many baby chicks running towards a crying man to comfort him. The video centered on the the innate compassion and love animals have and often freely express. I feel this everyday deeply. When I see animals and feel their beautiful sweet spirit, I am reminded of what is true. I feel overwhelmed by this love . It’s good but also feels that my heart is breaking into bits to encompass it all. I love nature and animals. They root me into my spirit again. It is everything to me. and I’m going into a phase that I MUST be surrounded by nature and animals caring for them and living close to them.

They are truly what is pure and wild and continue to remind me of what this life can be. Simple, kind, earth based, cyclical, calm, community centered, love actualized, connecected but free, safe but wild. Being one with heaven frequency and grounded on the new earth practically and simplistically.

I’m filled to the brim with love and gratitude for the soul of the creatures. I honor them and feel their life force and will always help to protect the most vulnerable among us-the most Divined among us too. 🙏

The Show Must Go On....Even When No One is Listening

Even through all my doubts, i know how bright i can shine when i let go. When i let myself be fully in the moment, pure energy, and just being for the sake of being...That's when i don't hear the doubting, self-sabotaging voices in my head or at least not as loudly. I am my best friend most of the time and that is why i keep on creating for no reason but to create. My dancing brings me joy, pleasure, aliveness, sensuality, healing, and transformation, so i dance often just for me. My singing and writing helps me hear my own soul voice amidst the chaos of life and my jumbled emotions. My art organizes my mind, ignites my passion and stabilizes me. I do what i do because it's a powerful practice. It's not just a hobby, it is a necessity.

The truth is i have been trying to start some kind of " art business" for years now. I don't have a "real business" in the sense of making a financial profit yet, but i do have a business in a way because it is adding riches to my life in other ways. My art means business. My words are valuable energetically. You can't put a financial price on them but i can still sell them because i sell a message and that message depends solely on where i am at different times in my life.

This message though, at its core, is about humanness and soulfulness, it's about the power of love, self-love, love of others, connection, honesty, vulnerability, showing up imperfectly in your most authentic Truth and committing to your being, passion, and purpose.

I am committed to an enterprise and that enterprise is my own creative expression, my voice. My art if you will. I creat art. I am an artist. I don't always create beautiful art in the technical sense. Rarely if ever do i create anything flawless. But i create art none the less and i like it and it feels like my purpose to do it. So I keep doing it whether i get paid or not, whether i get adulation or not, whether i help anyone or not. Would i like to get acknowledged and get paid of course, would i like to help others absolutely. There really is no better feeling than helping others. Helping others is what is truly the most satisfying and meaningful part of life. But i will always find ways to help others in whatever ways i can whether it's through writing or not.

I will still write my books and make my art in all the ways i feel called to and even if no one is looking or listening i will keep on doing it. My art, my words will outlive me. I won't force it on anyone and i don't claim i'm the next Walt Whitman, but it's my inner honest dialogue and i know it's valuable to me, and i have faith that it will be for someone else. I may never be as popular as some, and though i would like to know my Truth is inspiring to others too, if i truly believe this is my calling, which i do, then i still have to keep going anyway regardless.

For now i lean on the fact that i inspire my own self and i have the power to get past my own self-sabotaging doubts and fears, admit my shortcomings, and get on with the show.